Living In A Diminished Capacity?

Are you living with a Chronic Illness or a Diminished Capacity? Were you at one time a fully functioning individual with great muscle tone, great reflexes, a clear and sharp mind? Could you endure significant pain for brief periods of time (during exercise, sports, or even injury), and emotions that were rarely pushed to the brink?

Perhaps those days are behind you, for now. Today maybe your entire being is challenged with whole body chronic pain; fatigue that makes you feel like the weight of a thousand pounds is on your shoulders; your mind is foggy leaving you with the concentration, intellectual processing, and memory recall capacity of a simple light switch; your emotions are bouncing around like a super ball even before you get out of bed in the morning.

Maybe depression [due to a complication in your brain and body chemistry, or due to incredibly difficult circumstances) has darkened your mind and your outlook on every situation in your life. The darkness of depression swallows up any light of hope that might glimmer for just a moment, depression maintaining its occupation of the kingdom of your mind.

I know what it is like, because the above describes my journey. Some days are better than others, but on average these are my battles in this war.

There is something that I have discovered as I have journeyed through this terrain with God’s “ever present help in time of need.” There is one thing that we – the diminished capacity group – can do that is mighty and powerful. It makes the enemy of our souls rage with anger and frustration, and makes the angels of Heaven sing praises unto the Lord for His mighty work in us and through us:

We can be Brave and Determined!

While we are curled up in pain and suffering from the darkness of depression, and our eyes are bloodshot from crying our tear ducts dry, and we are feeling the sting of not having been able to live up to other people’s standards and expectations of daily performance in the most important of life’s responsibilities, there is one thing we CAN do.

If others will look deep into our eyes, past the bloodshot portions, past the colored iris, they will see a raging fire of determination to not only live, not only to survive, but to thrive in Christ! This fire is not of ourselves, it is a holy fire that has been sent from Heaven to burn upon our altar of sacrifice. It is the very altar where we put to death every day, several times each day, the world-inspiring scream of accusation, “Why me, God?!!”

No, the same God Who could instantly and miraculously send to us healing from Heaven has instead – for now – sent a holy fire to burn within us, demonstrating to everyone around us that God is not just a healer, but is also the one Who empowers the weak, encourages the hopeless, gives bravery to the fearful, and infuses supernatural determination into those who will ask.

What is your condition today? Do you struggle with all of the negative aspects that I have listed, but you have not experienced any of the positive things from God? Do you look deep within your soul and not see any fire of determination and bravery? You can, my friend, you can.

God and His fire of determination and bravery is accessed through prayer:

“For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.”

~ Hebrews 4:16

“When Solomon had finished praying, fire came down from heaven and consumed the burnt offering and the sacrifices; and the glory of the Lord filled the temple.”

~ 2 Chronicles 7:1

As you reach out to God today, may you too experience the fire of Heaven that will burn strong within you. We as Diminished Capacity-ers have a tremendous opportunity to be used by God during these brief days that we suffer, to be used by Him to demonstrate what real Bravery and Determination look like when God is the source! Our bodies may fail us, our tears may flow, but our determination and bravery wages war in the spirit realm that destroys the enemy’s soul-works in others.

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Absent, Though Present in Heart.

Fountain PenIf, per chance or per purpose, you have been dropping by my site to see what I might have posted lately, well… as you can see, I have not been writing much.

The desire is there, and the inspiration is mostly there, but due to the increased level of pain and exhaustion that I have been going through with the Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (FM/CFS) in these last several months, I have been absent, though present in heart.

While writing projects are on hold, I think I will dabble with changing the design and look of the site.  At least some creativity will find its opportunity for expression.

I hope to write again soon.

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Suffering for a Season, By God’s Will

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I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome in 2000, that was 13 years ago.

In 2006, about 7 years ago, I had reached such a level of pain and fatigue that I resigned from pastoring a church. I was unable to work, having to be in bed so much.

I believe in Divine healing through faith in the name of Jesus Christ. He has instantly healed me in the past of things, and I have witnessed people being instantly healed while I laid hands upon them and prayed in Jesus’ name. I have seen a 14 year heroin addict instantly delivered as I prayed for him and then touched him.

So, you might ask me why I still believe in Divine healing through Jesus’ name since I have not been healed after 13 years of praying for healing, and having been prayed for by countless others.

You may ask why I still think God loves me if He has not healed me and has allowed me to suffer so much pain for so long.

Well, I don’t have all the answers for why God heals and why He doesn’t. But I do know this: every time I pray for healing, I finish with, “Father, not my will, but Your will be done!”

Jesus’ Crucifixion is our perfect example of how our Heavenly Father at times chooses to accomplish His will through a season of our sufferings rather than through our deliverance, through our bankruptcy rather than through our prosperity, through our sickness rather than our health, and for some through their death rather than through their life.

Does this mean that I have given up hope? No, I believe with all my heart that God is going to heal me, either miraculously or medicinally. There is just a season of time that must pass so that God’s will may be accomplished through my life as I suffer these painful diseases.

Again, “not my will, but Your will be done, Father!” I can honestly say that God grants me the grace that I need (sometimes enough grace for the next moment or two, but I never run short on His supply of grace) and the peace that I need, to be able to truly desire for God to accomplish His will in and through my life BEFORE He heals me.

What about your life? Are you experiencing a prolonged season of suffering? Do you want God to provide the same grace to you that He has provided to me? Do you wish that you could genuinely desire God to accomplish His will in and through your life even if it means continuing in your suffering a little while longer before His healing is finally dispensed?

All we need to do is pray with heart-felt sincerity just as Jesus prayed after He had asked for deliverance from the suffering at hand: “Father, not my will, but Your will be done!”

Now THAT is living by faith!

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